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SW-120 CW-109 GW-105 UGW-95BMI-15.7
Height•5’4.5 |16|
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“Did you loose weight?”
“You look thinner lately!”
“I wish I had a thigh gap like yours!”
“You’re so small!”
“You look really good lately!”
“You are body goals!”
“I wish I was thin like you.”
“I wish I had your body!”
“Didn’t you use to be fat?”
“I’m jealous of your weight!”
“You’re the skinny friend.”
“You lost weight! You look great!”
To be delicate, dainty, and fragile.
To proudly tell people your clothing size.
To have thighs that look small in anything.
To have thighs that don’t touch.
Thigh gap for days.
To wear a bikini.
So you won’t have to compare yourself to others.
To become thinspo.
To look cute tiny, skinny, and thin.
To have people ask, “do you even eat?”
To have people ask, “are you sick?”
To have people say, “omg you lost so much weight you’re perfect!”
To have people tell you to eat.
To have people say, “omg you look like a model you’re so skinny. ”
For the double take.
To look pretty in every picture.
To enjoy going out in public and not being scared people are judging you on how fat you are.
To wear thigh high socks that are too big they fall down.
Being able to sit on someone’s lap/being picked up effortlessly.
Having small thighs while sitting.
To feel confident in intimate situations.
To look cute while wearing high-end fashion.
For the thigh tattoos.
To focus on something other than your weight.
To look skinny in skinny jeans.
Looking tiny in baggy sweatshirts, sweatpants, and clothes.
To have visible collarbones.
To be the skinny girl.
So you don’t fuck up all the progress you’ve already made.
So doing your hair and makeup doesn’t feel like a waste.
So you aren’t wasting your youth.
For sharp cheekbones that highlight your flower crowns.
To be called tiny.
To finally accomplish your ultimate goal weight.
To watch Netflix in your panties and bra without being self conscious.
To prove them wrong and make them jealous.
The jealous stares.
“She looks anorexic” sounds so much better than “ew she’s fat.”
You’ll be perfect once you hit your ultimate goal weight.
You’ll be fat if you eat today.
Starving is control, we like control.
You’ll look prettier.
You don’t NEED food.
Starving is an excellent example of willpower.
People will see your beautiful bones.
People will remember you as the beautiful girl.
Thin girls are extra graceful.
You’ll have both inner and outer beauty.
If you eat the food will turn into fat making you look disgusting.
Bones are pure, princessy, and clean.
Fat is dirty and gross it hangs off you like a parasite.
Thin people look cute in ALL clothes.
You’ll look like a beautiful ballerina.
Starving anorexic girl or ugly fat girl?
People will congratulate you on how much you’ve lost.
People won’t judge you or think your fat.
Starving works, diets don’t.
Food makes you fat.
You’ll save money on food.
Think of anorexia as your secret weapon.
You’ll finally have control over your life, feelings, and body.
Your body will look perfect.
You’ll feel happier and more confident.
You’ll be free without the fat.
Everybody else will be envious.
Perfect body equals perfect soul.
Have you ever seen anyone not noticing a thin girl?
You’ll be able to wear mini skirts.
People will envy and admire your body.
Do you want to be fat?
Do you want to be morbidly obese?
You’ll fit in all pretty clothes.
Most models are anorexic too.
You’ll die skinny and beautiful.
Anorexia is control.
You don’t deserve food.
Food is your enemy.
Eat less, weigh less, fail less, feel less.
An imperfect body reflects an imperfect soul.
Hunger hurts, but starving works.
Starving is not a punishment, it’s the cure.
Coffee and smokes, and cold diet cokes, that’s what pretty girls are made of.
Fat lasts longer than flavor.
Nothing tastes as good as skinny feels.
Slim thighs.
Thin is in.
A minute on the lips, a lifetime on the hips.
If you stop now, you will never get to your goal. Don’t give up.
Calories make you fat, food contains calories.
You’ll save time by not eating.
The word “fat” will only be used in a sarcastic way.
Is food more important than happiness?
Food is the devil, it’s mean, sneaky, and every bite makes you fat, ugly, bloated, and unhappy.
You’ll look like your favorite model.
Fat drags you down.
Cellulite or perfection?
You’ll be pure, holy, and clean.
Do you want all your skin to look like it’s going to burst because of all the fat?
You get a reward each time you’ve fasted over 3 days.
A tiny waist.
A great ass.
Being able to feel your bones.
To feel comfortable when someone touches or hugs me.
Legs that go on for days.
Looking 100% perfect and skinny.
Collarbones, cheekbones, and other bones I could cut you with.
To feel good about myself.
So I can finally have cheat days.
So I can post my own thinspo of myself.
So I don’t have to suck it in.
So I can get body piercings.
So I can get body tattoos.
So people can call me dainty, delicate, tiny, fragile, and adorably thin.
So I don’t look fat.
“I think all of my clothes are too big.”
A flat stomach.
Wearing a size 000 skinny jeans.
People saying “I wish I had your body.”
Not being afraid to show off my body.
Wearing a XXS.
No longer having huge manly arms.
Skinny arms.
Not being afraid to change in front of other people.
Walking around in my bra and panties.
Accomplishing self control.
Numbing the negative thoughts racing through my head.
I will be skinny.
I will be thin.
I will be beautiful.
You’ll get even fatter if you eat.
Do it so you can wear anything you want without it making you look fat.
It’s never worth it.
Imagine how much weight you’ve lost in the last few days. If you binge now that was all for nothing.
Do it for cute clothes, shopping sprees, and being happy in your own skin.
Because food will never satisfy you.
If you binge now, the urges will keep coming back. If you binge now it will not be the last time. It’ll keep going on and on. Break the cycle.
That full, fat, and I can’t breathe because I’m so stuffed feeling is so much worse than the euphoric, dizzy, shaking, and faint feeling of hunger.
Control is power.
Because you crave that euphoric, dizzy, shaking, faint, feeling of hunger.
Because you NEED that euphoric high of hunger.
Because you want people to notice you.
I want to see my bones when I look in the mirror.
I want to put my hands on my stomach and only feel my ribcage, no fat!
I want to look sexy in everything I wear.
I want to be so fragile and thin that someone’s afraid I might break.
I want my sweatpants to hang off my waist.
I want to be perfect for once in my life.
I want people’s jaws to drop when they see me.
I want to be even more addicted to socks because they will be my go-to clothing to wear when I have a beautiful thigh gap.
I want to be able to buy Victoria’s Secret PINK clothing.
I want to wear hoodies year round because I’m so cold.
Because everyone said, “no!”
I want to become friends with other girls who have eating disorders like myself.
I want to be able to get a belly button piercing.
I want to be able to get hip piercings.
I want to be able to get collarbone piercings.
I want to be able to get back dimple piercings.
I want to be able to get wrist piercings.
I want my weight to be a number I love.
I want to wear clothing with stripes on it without it making me look fat.
I want to wear skirts and dresses without worrying about my huge thunder thighs.
I want my hip bones to stick out.
I want to have a tiny waist that I can wrap my hands around.
I want to have tiny dainty arms.
I want to have fragile bony wrists.
I want my ribs to show whenever I look in the mirror.
To be comfortable in skinny jeans.
To not hate shopping.
To look cute all the time, even in a hoodie, and a messy bun.
To not have a chubby face.
To not have a chubby body.
To not have a double chin.
To not hate myself in pictures.
To feel comfortable introducing myself to people.
To feel comfortable going out in public.
To feel confident on the first day back to school.
To stop hating myself.
To love myself.
To feel like I am being the best version of myself.
To not look in the mirror and want to cry my heart out.
To not look in the mirror and say “you’re so fat!”
To feel like I have control over food.
To not always want food.
To not feel fat eating in front of people.
To feel beautiful in my own skin.
Not being the fat one in the relationship.
To feel at peace with mind.
To understand food is not a prize or celebration it’s just fuel.
To always feel freezing cold.
For my body to look like nothing, but a canvas.
For my arms to look like my wrists.
For my body to look like art.
To look like a royal, pure, gorgeous, clean, princess.
For clear skin.
To be proud of the number on the scale.
To be the thinnest, not the fattest princess.
To have a flat stomach.
To not feel embarrassed to even leave the apartment.
To turn heads in the gym.
To be the skinniest girl in the gym.
To not obsess over how fat I am.
To not obsess over when I’ll reach my ultimate goal weight.
To not have my eating disorder revolve around my life.
To have thin, slim, fingers.
For my ass to look perfect in yoga pants.
To look cute in leggings.
For people to say, “wow you look so skinny.”
To not feel ashamed when people talk about their weight.
To feel comfortable around food.
To feel comfortable around other people eating.
To not hate myself looking in the mirror naked.
To love every inch of my body.
To look skinny even if I’m bloated.
To be pretty.
To be wanted.
To feel small wrapped in his arms.
To no longer look pregnant.
To not compare myself to everyone I see.
To not have your thighs jiggle.
To not regret eating a morsel of food.
To have thin little legs in shorts.
To be able to wear a bralet and not feel fat.
To wear crop tops without a tank top underneath to cover your fat stomach.
To feel comfortable wearing a sports bra at the gym.
Small, thin wrists.
Prominent collarbones.
Baggy hoodie with shorts as pajamas.
To be skinny, get more attention, and get treated better. Aren’t you sick of being the shadow?
To eat less calories, less food, more spent on alcohol!
To have everyone see how lit your body is.
So you don’t feel the need to automatically cover yourself up with a towel, as soon as you get out of the pool, ocean, shower, etc.
Less chafing
Less stretch marks
Being able to run your hands over your ribs and hip bones.
A slender neck.
To wear fishnets and boyfriend jeans to take aesthetic pictures in.
To post pictures on Instagram, Snapchat, and Tumblr. So everyone reblogs them with #thinspo.
To never look like your trying to hard.
To look cute wearing literally anything.
To fit into your friends clothes, but they’re too big.
To not feel hungry.
To use less lotion and soap for your whole body.
Taking less time to shave because your legs are smaller.
Appearing taller.
People asking, “how did you do it.”
To look sexy wearing lingerie.
People saying, “you should be a model.”
Wrapping yourself in a blanket and disappearing into it.
You’ll look stunning in pictures.
Cuddling without feeling gross.
Casually taking pictures of your legs on Snapchat and they don’t look huge.
Fitting in between people easily.
Everything is easier.
Remember how you looked naked.
Remember how your thighs touch.
Remember how you look at others.
Remember how your stomach looks.
Remember how unhappy you are.
Remember how ashamed you are.
Remember how your body looks.
Remember how people see fat.
Imagine you when your thin.
Remember how far you have come.
Just ana goals
1. to have cheekbones finally
2. to be smaller around my body
3. to get a thigh gap
4. to get rid of my tummy rolls & double chin
5. to wear tight-fitted clothes
6. to be more confident standing in front of my class
7. to fit more especially in skinny jeans
8. to make myself & parents proud
9. to be less introverted & more a outgoing person
10. to feel not fat anymore
Until my boyfriend actually worries about me instead of encourages me,
Until my friends and family notice just how much weight I’ve really lost,
Until none of my clothes fit and I’m forced to buy a whole new wardrobe,
Until my stomach is flat, my waist tiny, my fingers dainty,
Until I’m someone’s thinspo or body goals,
Until they say “You’re so skinny!” instead of “You’re not fat”,
Until they ask, “What’s your secret?”
Until they ask, “Do you even eat?”
Until I’m dead.
If you could wake up tomorrow at your UGW, perfect and thin, Thigh gap, collarbones, hip bones jutting out. Flat tummy, thin arms.
Everything you’ve ever wanted.
If you could wake up tomorrow perfect, but the only thing you had to do was eat clean and keep your calorie intake to a minimum just for TODAY, would you be able to do it?
Of course you would.
So all you have to do is tell yourself every single day that you’ll be perfect tomorrow morning if you don’t eat that cheeseburger. If you eat some fruit and drink some water instead.
And one of these days you’ll wake up and actually be there.
Imagine:
- thin, naturally contoured face
- thin neck
- jutting collarbones and (slightly) chest bones
- pointed shoulders
- flat or even slightly concave stomach
- prominent ribs without sucking in
- visible hip bones when standing
- teeny waist
- thigh gap when standing, sitting, laying on my side and with your legs propped up
- tiny thighs that you can wrap both of your hands around
- the ability to wrap your hand around your upper arm
- glasses will look better on a thinner face
- those heels will look better on slim legs
- being able to wear size 00 and xs/xxs
- being the only one to shop at charlotte russe etc because you are so small and everyone else is bigger than you
- no one can steal your clothes anymore
- no more fat on your ankles
- small clothes = more space to put them
- eating to live not living to eat
- size 24 pants at buckle
- size small/medium will look baggy
- actually feeling comfortable in a 2 piece come summer 2017
- stores always have s/xs/xxs
- everyone else’s clothes will be too big for you
- body checks = thinspo
- getting piggy back rides instead of giving them
- getting to sit on other people’s laps in the car because you’ll always be the smallest
- lighter on your feet
- looking tiny in everything
- chokers look better on smaller necks
- wearing other people’s jackets because they will always be too big and warm
- actually wearing tank tops and shorts without wanting to Die
- no more bulging stomach that hinders you from comfortably wearing high waist pants/shorts
- all your clothes will fit comfortably
- ACTUALLY FITTING TIGHT CLOTHING WITHOUT IT CUTTING INTO YOUR STOMACH
- no more BACK FAT ROLLS!!!!!!
- every part of your body will be thinner
- no more excess fat holding you down
- the word fat will never literally apply to you
- the next time you run into anyone you haven’t seen in a while they will notice how much smaller you are
- saying your weight or clothing size won’t be embarrassing
- when someone picks you up they will be so amazed at how little you weigh
- smaller stomach = smaller portions = saving money on food
- healthier lifestyle
- looking in the mirror and not seeing a fat whale
- actually feeling good about yourself for once
- not being held back by your weight ever again
- bralettes will fit comfortably and your boobs won’t spill out of them
- wearing a tank top to the gym and feeling comfortable about it
- feeling good about yourself
Please remember our goal is to be thin not in the hospital. Take care of yourself. if you feel weak, eat something, even if you planned on fasting. Your health should always come first. Take vitamins. you want to look pretty not dead.❤️️
If you could wake up tomorrow at your UGW, perfect and thin, Thigh gap, collarbones, hip bones jutting out. Flat tummy, thin arms.
Everything you’ve ever wanted.
If you could wake up tomorrow perfect, but the only thing you had to do was eat clean and keep your calorie intake to a minimum just for TODAY, would you be able to do it?
Of course you would.
So all you have to do is tell yourself every single day that you’ll be perfect tomorrow morning if you don’t eat that cheeseburger. If you eat some fruit and drink some water instead.
And one of these days you’ll wake up and actually be there.
WOAH